Magickal Circle

Well, I had to do it. I couldn’t not have a dragon for “earth” so I got a new lizard. In thinking of a name, I though “what is a good name for earth”. I immediately thought “peat moss” so I said “that’s it”. Peatie!

I did a “what does your favorite color say about you?” My favorite color is purple and this is what it said:

What Your Favorite Color Purple Says About You:

Intuitive — Seeking — Creative Kind — Self-Sacrificing — Growth Oriented Strong — Very Wise — Rare

What Does Your Favorite Color Say About You?

I am very sad to report that I lost one of my dragons last Thursday.  It was Rocky, the one I refered to as earth. I found him dead in his cage in the morning. He was a beautiful dragon and I already miss him so much.  We had a brief candelight service for him graveside and said our goodbyes. It was very hard and now I fear that I might lose my other dragons as well.

My one girl, Spike, has a respiratory infection and she went to the vet today. She is constipated, dehydrated and has the respiratory infection. She is the one refered to as air.   I now have to give her antibiotics, soak her and give her saline injected under her skin. I hate giving my pets needles. Good thing I am a nurse by training as it makes it me more comfortable with the needles. She changed her normal behavior of hanging out in the hammock as if to say, Help me.

I have another dragon who has been sick off and on and is sick again.  Off to the vet again.

Update: Since I started writing this post last week (and never finished it) things are indeed looking up.  Spike seems to have turned the corner and is improving. I got quite excited today when she pooped. The vet had said she was constipated and dehydrated. But since she was exhibiting signs of respiratory problems, she is treating her with antibiotics. One more week to go with that.

The other dragon, Casanova is on antibiotics for 4 weeks. And we are talking having to inject them with the stuff. Good thing I am trained as a nurse. But he seems to be doing well now so I am encouraged.

So this ends on a positive note! Still miss Rocky bunches. I  got another dragon (more on this later) but he can never be replaced.  Wonder what or who he will come back as?  

We are fast approaching Samhaim. One of my favorite holidays. I love getting dressed up. I plan to go to work in costume again this year. I went last year as the queen. I make my own costumes and had a crown and everything. It was cool but I was the only one who dressed up. This year I plan to go as a belly dancer which works out as halloween is on a Wednesday, the same day as belly dancing class. The instructor is having Goddess night, which almost makes me question what her beliefs are. I think she might be Pagan but not necessarily Wiccan. We can wear costume, makeup, bindi’s ( that’s the thing on your forehead between your eyes.) basically anything different than the usual. It out to be fun. Then she is going to have a Halloween ball the Saturday the 3rd. There will be a band and dancing and the teacher is going to perform. I have never seen her do a performance but she moves so well when she demonstrates in class. I think it will be alot of fun.

Does anyone else have plans that day? I’d be interested to hear about it.

I am happy to say that my husband and I purchased a HDTV. It has a wonderful picture and now I don’t want to go to work but just want to sit and watch TV. I’ve not been that much of a TV watcher but now I feel compelled to watch. We had to buy a new TV stand too and it turned out to be glossy black just like the TV. It looks like it was made for that TV. Very Cool.

My concern is that my husband tends to monopolize the TV. We just got it yesterday but he got me a bit PO’d ’cause he sort of took over the TV first thing. I never get a say in what we watch. He started with that crap right away and I’m not putting up with it this time. I get real tired of putting on something on want to watch, he walks into the room, grabs the remote and changes it to what he wants to watch. Makes me feel pretty bad, sort of like I don’t count. I get tired of watching motor head stuff on Saturdays. About the only thing I get to watch are cartoons on Saturday morning and that’s usually before he gets up.

We sort of had a fight about it last night. I got pissed after he took over and said to him, I hope you enjoy your gift and went upstairs. A big reason we were able to buy the TV was the raise I got, so I sort of felt that the TV was kind of mine. I should at least get a say about programming. He did agree later that he was monopolizing it and handed me the remote and did not complain about my program choice. It made me feel a bit better but I also felt very bitchy about it. I just kind of got bitchy at everyone when I got home from work and he was not sharing. I just need to get a grip sometimes. Somethings are not worth getting mad over but this was something that had been going on for a while and I guess I had enough, especially with a TV that I wanted so bad. I love electronic gadgets and wanted the TV for a while. I shouldn’t get so upset over material things but I felt the whole thing was more a question of respect and sharing, not the TV itself. I felt, and still do feel that he could at least ask me if the program he choses is ok with me. He even tends to but the remote away from where I can reach it, rather than putting where we can both reach it. How rude is that? I guess that’s part of the reason I didn’t watch too much TV but found other things to do.

I hate fighting too. We don’t do it often and I guess I am the one the picks the fight. My husband is a nice guy and all but he is sort of single minded. He can’t do two things ar once so I can never talk to him while he’s watching TV because it takes his full attention. So I get so I feel ignored. After a while it really makes me feel like he doesn’t care what I have to say and he is not very interested in me. When I already have issues about self esteem, that doesn’t help any. My doctor says it’s because it’s the way his mind works, that it is not personal. Well that’s fine but when he doesn’t seem to make the effort, then I really question his feelings towards me. But I do know her does love me. Makes me feel a bit schizo because I feel torn both ways and don’t know what to think. I’ve always been a big believer in actions speak louder than words and when he acts that way it really hurts. I guess I need to learn to not be so sensitive. But that’s part of the reason I am on medication, because I am that way. It sucks.

Anyway, I think I have ranted long enough. Have a great day.

Sunday is Mabon or Fall Equinox. You think I might be prepared- for a change. Of course not. But alas- it is not too late. I already have the ritual from Beltane that I wrote but we never used. Most of it was pretty generic except for the Beltane part, of course. I’ve never been a big one for doing ritual but feel that I want to, need to. It’s not that I feel bad or anything but that I want to be more in touch with the goddess. I don’t know but it is hard to explain. So it’s something to work on tomorrow. I plan to be recording old vinyl records to CD. It will be a time consuming process but I will finally get to listen to some of the old collection. While they play I can work on some of this stuff. A win win in my book. Have a great holiday.

Well, I guess you could say life is good. I am working my new job which I like very much plus got a substantial raise. Thar’s a win win in my book. Plus I am told I am doing well at my new position. Lot’s of work to do. Everything has to be reviewed that I do as it goes to the FDA so I get stuff back and feel like it’s been graded. It’s kind of funny. But I am learning and I am doing much better- I can see my progress. The days go faster too but I am tired at the end of the day. I sort of put my all into my job, sort of the way I am. Don’t feel much like doing anything when I get home during the week. But then there is belly dancing once a week which is lots of fun. Even though I am a plus sized person, I still have fun with it.

So things get left to the weekend and there are so many things to do. I like to make jewelry and I want to make a new sweater coat with a sun on the back and moon and stars on the front. SO I have yet to design but have a real clear image in my head about what I want. THEN, there is finishing the harem pant I started and draft and make the matching top. I might wear it for a halloween costume though. Need to get a coin scarf that matches. Never have time to quilt anymore either. Most of my spare time I spend on my store doing stuff. I spent last weekend updating inventory. If you want to see the store, its is www.agelesstreasures.biz. New age stuff, fairies, celtic jewelry. I like it but it doesn’t make any money. But it is fun and it’s mine.

I’ve been trying to read this book on learning to read the aura. There are exercised in the book to do to learn to feel the energy people give off. That’s as far as I’ve gottn so far. Something else to do. I have so many interests but so little time. So I am going to go for now. I’ll try to be better about posting. I’ve been a bad girl!

Have a good one

Goddess Bless

My husband and I were talking the other night about religion. We both agreed that we feel better about life and ourselves since we’ve been Pagan. I’m not Christianity bashing or anything. I know I never felt comfortable with it somehow and I did try. I was in the church choir so I was in church all the time. I tried to take confirmation classes too but that was I guess the point where I decided it was not for me. I went to some bible studies with a friend later and that just served to reinforce my feelings.

I think religion should help make you feel better about life, not worse. Make you feel like you’re not really alone. You find peace with your beliefs. I feel like I have come home since I’ve let the Goddess into my life. That’s a real good place to be in my book.

Full moon in 3 days and I need to take the opportunity to thank the goddess. Even if I just light a candle and stare at the beauty of the moon and thank her.

Much to my delight (not to be confused with a lightning bug in a fan) I actually got the new job at work. They sent me to training and I have officially started in my new position. I am still waiting for a new working contract, but other than that, things are good! Today is supposed to be my first day to process a report, I just have to wait for the documents to review.

My new job is doing review of  safety reports, for drugs, to the FDA.  Pretty important stuff and accuracy counts.  It should turn out to very interesting and I get to use my brain. That’s the best part ’cause I need the brain stimulation. Nothing is worse than a boring job.  And the old position was a lot of that.  Serious snooze. 

So I get to use my nursing knowledge and have regular working hours.  Supposed to be some good money too, but no one has thrown any numbers my way yet.  As long as I continue to like it, I see it as a win-win situation.  The goddess has answered my prayers!

I’ll keep you all posted!

Oh, what a poor Pagan I turned out to be. The holiday totally escaped me.  I was so busy with Bellydancing and  making plans to do some sewing and working. Working on getting my new position at work and sort of caught up on it rather than the holiday.  I really need to pay more attention!

I’ve been so caught up in getting this new position at work, I’ve just been lost in thought of that.  Plus, I haven’t cracked the witches almanac in a bit either.  Plus bellydancing. Whoo hoo, what fun that is. I am still trying to convince my body that it is posible to do that which I am asking of it.  I had fun at a seminar too even if I could only hope I could learn how to do some of these moves, but I digress….

About the only thing we are harvesting at out house are cherry tomatoes as the other tomatoes have set but I am sure we won’t see any of those until September. We will keep getting tomatoes until  November and  first frost.  Kind of nice when the store ones are already yucky we can have some nice fresh ones. And horseradish- must harvest the horseradish. It’s getting out of control it has become so large.  I guess just before halloween is the time to grate it. Hmm, tears will be rolling down my face from the pungent fumes from the root.  But it is so good fresh….

I have a postage stamp yard but it looks nice. Not much room for a garden. Just the tomato plants, the horseradish and a rhubarb plant. The rest of the yard has flowers.  I planted cucumber on a trellis growing up once, and made pickles. That was quite a while ago. Don’t seem to have much time these days.  Busy with the store, the house, the chores.  But always have some time for the yard.

Sorry I’ve rambled a bit, my mind is sort of jumbled today. Too much going on in there, or is it the echo that is so distracting……