Well, I had to do it. I couldn’t not have a dragon for “earth” so I got a new lizard. In thinking of a name, I though “what is a good name for earth”. I immediately thought “peat moss” so I said “that’s it”. Peatie!
I did a “what does your favorite color say about you?” My favorite color is purple and this is what it said:
What Your Favorite Color Purple Says About You: |
 Intuitive — Seeking — Creative Kind — Self-Sacrificing — Growth Oriented Strong — Very Wise — Rare |
I am very sad to report that I lost one of my dragons last Thursday. It was Rocky, the one I refered to as earth. I found him dead in his cage in the morning. He was a beautiful dragon and I already miss him so much. We had a brief candelight service for him graveside and said our goodbyes. It was very hard and now I fear that I might lose my other dragons as well.
My one girl, Spike, has a respiratory infection and she went to the vet today. She is constipated, dehydrated and has the respiratory infection. She is the one refered to as air. I now have to give her antibiotics, soak her and give her saline injected under her skin. I hate giving my pets needles. Good thing I am a nurse by training as it makes it me more comfortable with the needles. She changed her normal behavior of hanging out in the hammock as if to say, Help me.
I have another dragon who has been sick off and on and is sick again. Off to the vet again.
Update: Since I started writing this post last week (and never finished it) things are indeed looking up. Spike seems to have turned the corner and is improving. I got quite excited today when she pooped. The vet had said she was constipated and dehydrated. But since she was exhibiting signs of respiratory problems, she is treating her with antibiotics. One more week to go with that.
The other dragon, Casanova is on antibiotics for 4 weeks. And we are talking having to inject them with the stuff. Good thing I am trained as a nurse. But he seems to be doing well now so I am encouraged.
So this ends on a positive note! Still miss Rocky bunches. I got another dragon (more on this later) but he can never be replaced. Wonder what or who he will come back as?
I am happy to say that my husband and I purchased a HDTV. It has a wonderful picture and now I don’t want to go to work but just want to sit and watch TV. I’ve not been that much of a TV watcher but now I feel compelled to watch. We had to buy a new TV stand too and it turned out to be glossy black just like the TV. It looks like it was made for that TV. Very Cool.
My concern is that my husband tends to monopolize the TV. We just got it yesterday but he got me a bit PO’d ’cause he sort of took over the TV first thing. I never get a say in what we watch. He started with that crap right away and I’m not putting up with it this time. I get real tired of putting on something on want to watch, he walks into the room, grabs the remote and changes it to what he wants to watch. Makes me feel pretty bad, sort of like I don’t count. I get tired of watching motor head stuff on Saturdays. About the only thing I get to watch are cartoons on Saturday morning and that’s usually before he gets up.
We sort of had a fight about it last night. I got pissed after he took over and said to him, I hope you enjoy your gift and went upstairs. A big reason we were able to buy the TV was the raise I got, so I sort of felt that the TV was kind of mine. I should at least get a say about programming. He did agree later that he was monopolizing it and handed me the remote and did not complain about my program choice. It made me feel a bit better but I also felt very bitchy about it. I just kind of got bitchy at everyone when I got home from work and he was not sharing. I just need to get a grip sometimes. Somethings are not worth getting mad over but this was something that had been going on for a while and I guess I had enough, especially with a TV that I wanted so bad. I love electronic gadgets and wanted the TV for a while. I shouldn’t get so upset over material things but I felt the whole thing was more a question of respect and sharing, not the TV itself. I felt, and still do feel that he could at least ask me if the program he choses is ok with me. He even tends to but the remote away from where I can reach it, rather than putting where we can both reach it. How rude is that? I guess that’s part of the reason I didn’t watch too much TV but found other things to do.
I hate fighting too. We don’t do it often and I guess I am the one the picks the fight. My husband is a nice guy and all but he is sort of single minded. He can’t do two things ar once so I can never talk to him while he’s watching TV because it takes his full attention. So I get so I feel ignored. After a while it really makes me feel like he doesn’t care what I have to say and he is not very interested in me. When I already have issues about self esteem, that doesn’t help any. My doctor says it’s because it’s the way his mind works, that it is not personal. Well that’s fine but when he doesn’t seem to make the effort, then I really question his feelings towards me. But I do know her does love me. Makes me feel a bit schizo because I feel torn both ways and don’t know what to think. I’ve always been a big believer in actions speak louder than words and when he acts that way it really hurts. I guess I need to learn to not be so sensitive. But that’s part of the reason I am on medication, because I am that way. It sucks.
Anyway, I think I have ranted long enough. Have a great day.
Well, I guess you could say life is good. I am working my new job which I like very much plus got a substantial raise. Thar’s a win win in my book. Plus I am told I am doing well at my new position. Lot’s of work to do. Everything has to be reviewed that I do as it goes to the FDA so I get stuff back and feel like it’s been graded. It’s kind of funny. But I am learning and I am doing much better- I can see my progress. The days go faster too but I am tired at the end of the day. I sort of put my all into my job, sort of the way I am. Don’t feel much like doing anything when I get home during the week. But then there is belly dancing once a week which is lots of fun. Even though I am a plus sized person, I still have fun with it.
So things get left to the weekend and there are so many things to do. I like to make jewelry and I want to make a new sweater coat with a sun on the back and moon and stars on the front. SO I have yet to design but have a real clear image in my head about what I want. THEN, there is finishing the harem pant I started and draft and make the matching top. I might wear it for a halloween costume though. Need to get a coin scarf that matches. Never have time to quilt anymore either. Most of my spare time I spend on my store doing stuff. I spent last weekend updating inventory. If you want to see the store, its is www.agelesstreasures.biz. New age stuff, fairies, celtic jewelry. I like it but it doesn’t make any money. But it is fun and it’s mine.
I’ve been trying to read this book on learning to read the aura. There are exercised in the book to do to learn to feel the energy people give off. That’s as far as I’ve gottn so far. Something else to do. I have so many interests but so little time. So I am going to go for now. I’ll try to be better about posting. I’ve been a bad girl!
Have a good one
Goddess Bless
My husband and I were talking the other night about religion. We both agreed that we feel better about life and ourselves since we’ve been Pagan. I’m not Christianity bashing or anything. I know I never felt comfortable with it somehow and I did try. I was in the church choir so I was in church all the time. I tried to take confirmation classes too but that was I guess the point where I decided it was not for me. I went to some bible studies with a friend later and that just served to reinforce my feelings.
I think religion should help make you feel better about life, not worse. Make you feel like you’re not really alone. You find peace with your beliefs. I feel like I have come home since I’ve let the Goddess into my life. That’s a real good place to be in my book.
Full moon in 3 days and I need to take the opportunity to thank the goddess. Even if I just light a candle and stare at the beauty of the moon and thank her.
Much to my delight (not to be confused with a lightning bug in a fan) I actually got the new job at work. They sent me to training and I have officially started in my new position. I am still waiting for a new working contract, but other than that, things are good! Today is supposed to be my first day to process a report, I just have to wait for the documents to review.
My new job is doing review of safety reports, for drugs, to the FDA. Pretty important stuff and accuracy counts. It should turn out to very interesting and I get to use my brain. That’s the best part ’cause I need the brain stimulation. Nothing is worse than a boring job. And the old position was a lot of that. Serious snooze.
So I get to use my nursing knowledge and have regular working hours. Supposed to be some good money too, but no one has thrown any numbers my way yet. As long as I continue to like it, I see it as a win-win situation. The goddess has answered my prayers!
I’ll keep you all posted!
I finally got the chance to shadow someone at work. Boy was that fun. This new position at work is of great interest to me. I will be a Data Safety Associate. Some of the existing ones are leaving so they will need more DSA’s to do the tremendous amount of work. So it looks very promising, but I have to be patient. That is something I have problems with when it comes to things like this. I want the immediate gratification which includes both a job where I can use my brain and the increase in pay. Sounds like a win-win situation to me. I have to say the the Goddess must be smiling on me right now! Now when I am performing my current job which is electronically registering documents, I look at them thinking ‘oh this goes here and you need to do this with that” kind of thing. So I am alaready thinking about all this stuff. It is a job that required attention to detail. Once I have worked in this position for a bit, I can go anywhere to work. It will be a door that has opened and offers me many opportunities. Now how good it that!
With this months full moon I have got to thank the Goddess. Even if it is nothing more than lighting a candle and staring at the moon and thanking her. I must thank her somehow, after all.
Even the Faeries are smiling on me too. My cards say nothing but positive things about my future. How exciting life looks right now!
Goddess Bless!
I feel like I am in mourning. The loss of a friend. They didn’t die or anything but they are no longer, so it seems, considering me as a friend. I am not perfect or anything but I feel that I ruined everything and so I consider it my fault. I don’t do well with screwing things up. I am a sensitive person and take everything to heart. So I am very sad.
I don’t understand the lack of forgiveness or is it a question of no consideration for anyone else’s feelings. I try to think of other peoples feeling but I am not perfect. I have said the wrong thing too many times I suppose. So again, brought on by my own stupidity. As usual I am my own worst enemy.
So I guess I have to be grateful for the time I had as this person’s friend. And I enjoyed it a lot. New thoughts and ideas and a different way of looking at things. Moral support too. Lots of that. and now it’s gone. 
So I say a prayer for my friend- that their life will be good and they will be happy. That’s all I ever wanted was for them to be happy. But now I’m sad and I don’t know how they feel because they won’t say. And they have a reason but to me it doesn’t relate. They don’t want to spend so much time on the computer. This translated to didn’t want to chat anymore in reality- at least my reality anyway. Doesn’t make much sense. Why can’t people say what they mean. I would rather the truth, even if not pleasant rather than some BS excuse that in essence is more insulting because it shows lack of respect. Hmm, maybe they felt I didn’t deserve that much consideration. I guess that’s another point to ponder. But when a person says they value the friendship and then seem to toss it away and it’s gone, I question how valuble was it to them? I am so confused.
So I mourn the loss. Some days I cry, some are just sad. Sometimes I am angry. All that grief stuff. I guess it will get easier with time……so I hope.
If none of this makes any sense, then I apologize. I just had to vent.
Another weekend gone by and it’s Monday. A cloudy rainy one at that and I am ready for a nap. Can’t very well take one at work now can I? Oh to curl up about now. Mmmmm.
Spent the weekend planting some more flowers and trying to make the back yard look nice. We are actually growing grass at this point. I find this exciting since we have been trying for years to grow grass there but it was always too shady. I was quite excited when I saw how long the stuff that germinated is. It’s these little things that mean so much. I love the plants and green stuff. I think the Goddess would be proud of us!
I spent Sunday getting an order ready for some jewelry components as I am making some jewelry and plan to sell it. I’ve made some chandalier crystal earrings that are quite nice. Sold a few pairs too. All stuff for my store I have on line. I am buying some stuff to make anklets for a friend and myself. I can never find premade ones since my ankles are too big. Yes I am overweight but even at a good weight, they still don’t make them big enough for my big bones. I have the same problem with bracelets. But I have to technology to make my own and it’s time to get creative.
Anyway. Monday afternoon dulldrums and maybe I’ll wake up soon. Perhaps when it’s time to go home.
So how was your weekend?