Magickal Circle

Wow, I can’t believe that another year is almost over.  Yule is almost here but I sort of end up celebrating Christmas with my family. My parents have no idea that I am pagan now and it just sort of makes it easier to go with the flow. My siblings aren’t aware either except for my one sister and she doesn’t really understand either. So it is my husband and myself that will have to celebrate Yule.

I feel like I am a terrible Pagan. About as bad as I was a Christian.  I say that because I hardly ever went to church and if I did it was only on a major holiday. Being Pagan, I try to recognize the full moon by at least lighting a candle. But I never do ritual ’cause I guess I feel like I will do it wrong or something. I realize that the Goddess will understand and it is the thought that counts but I don’t want to be disrespectful either. But I do have to say that I think my life is so much better since I have allowed the goddess into my life.  So I say that it is a good thing and I find a certain amount of peace. I believe that my husband feels the same way.

But I guess that I feel so much of a hippocrit celebrating Christmas.  I can’t say to my family that I don’t celebrate Christmas anymore. They’d look at me like I have two heads.  The best thing I think is to just go with that flow. It’s a time of family and love, as I look at it and it shouldn’t matter what your beliefs are.  How have others dealt with this. I’d like to hear what you have experienced