Upcoming Holiday

October 18th, 2007, 10:53 AM by Admin

We are fast approaching Samhaim. One of my favorite holidays. I love getting dressed up. I plan to go to work in costume again this year. I went last year as the queen. I make my own costumes and had a crown and everything. It was cool but I was the only one who dressed up. This year I plan to go as a belly dancer which works out as halloween is on a Wednesday, the same day as belly dancing class. The instructor is having Goddess night, which almost makes me question what her beliefs are. I think she might be Pagan but not necessarily Wiccan. We can wear costume, makeup, bindi’s ( that’s the thing on your forehead between your eyes.) basically anything different than the usual. It out to be fun. Then she is going to have a Halloween ball the Saturday the 3rd. There will be a band and dancing and the teacher is going to perform. I have never seen her do a performance but she moves so well when she demonstrates in class. I think it will be alot of fun.

Does anyone else have plans that day? I’d be interested to hear about it.

New Toy

October 5th, 2007, 7:35 AM by Admin

I am happy to say that my husband and I purchased a HDTV. It has a wonderful picture and now I don’t want to go to work but just want to sit and watch TV. I’ve not been that much of a TV watcher but now I feel compelled to watch. We had to buy a new TV stand too and it turned out to be glossy black just like the TV. It looks like it was made for that TV. Very Cool.

My concern is that my husband tends to monopolize the TV. We just got it yesterday but he got me a bit PO’d ’cause he sort of took over the TV first thing. I never get a say in what we watch. He started with that crap right away and I’m not putting up with it this time. I get real tired of putting on something on want to watch, he walks into the room, grabs the remote and changes it to what he wants to watch. Makes me feel pretty bad, sort of like I don’t count. I get tired of watching motor head stuff on Saturdays. About the only thing I get to watch are cartoons on Saturday morning and that’s usually before he gets up.

We sort of had a fight about it last night. I got pissed after he took over and said to him, I hope you enjoy your gift and went upstairs. A big reason we were able to buy the TV was the raise I got, so I sort of felt that the TV was kind of mine. I should at least get a say about programming. He did agree later that he was monopolizing it and handed me the remote and did not complain about my program choice. It made me feel a bit better but I also felt very bitchy about it. I just kind of got bitchy at everyone when I got home from work and he was not sharing. I just need to get a grip sometimes. Somethings are not worth getting mad over but this was something that had been going on for a while and I guess I had enough, especially with a TV that I wanted so bad. I love electronic gadgets and wanted the TV for a while. I shouldn’t get so upset over material things but I felt the whole thing was more a question of respect and sharing, not the TV itself. I felt, and still do feel that he could at least ask me if the program he choses is ok with me. He even tends to but the remote away from where I can reach it, rather than putting where we can both reach it. How rude is that? I guess that’s part of the reason I didn’t watch too much TV but found other things to do.

I hate fighting too. We don’t do it often and I guess I am the one the picks the fight. My husband is a nice guy and all but he is sort of single minded. He can’t do two things ar once so I can never talk to him while he’s watching TV because it takes his full attention. So I get so I feel ignored. After a while it really makes me feel like he doesn’t care what I have to say and he is not very interested in me. When I already have issues about self esteem, that doesn’t help any. My doctor says it’s because it’s the way his mind works, that it is not personal. Well that’s fine but when he doesn’t seem to make the effort, then I really question his feelings towards me. But I do know her does love me. Makes me feel a bit schizo because I feel torn both ways and don’t know what to think. I’ve always been a big believer in actions speak louder than words and when he acts that way it really hurts. I guess I need to learn to not be so sensitive. But that’s part of the reason I am on medication, because I am that way. It sucks.

Anyway, I think I have ranted long enough. Have a great day.