Magickal Circle

Well I guess the medicine must be working as I do find myself feeling better.Things are not looking quite so gloomy. I appreciate the positive comments and concern.I have been down this road before and things do eventually get better, especially if you do take your medicine. But that was just it. I had been taking it and I just bottomed out. Go figure.

So the Miracle of modern Psychiatry. Personally I think Tom Cruise is a jerk. He really knows nothing on the subject yet presents himself like he’s an expert. What a a-hole.

I’ve been trying to find a new job. A recruiter called me about a position and wanted professional references. That would be great except none of my former managers are permitted to give references according to their company policy. So what are you supposed to do? He could not submit me for a position without the references. How are you supposed to get them?
I’m still trying to recover from losing both positions I interviewed for a few weeks back. It is probably for the best as they were short term but what a blow to your ego.

You know the thing I don’t like about the higher dose of meds is that you feel a bit detached and numb. At least I do. But much more in control. I prefer the “in control”, at least for now. A bit like I’m in slow motion too. Very odd. But I do feel better and not so depressed and much better able to deal with things.

I have been looking more into Tarot- bought a few more books. Haven’t been able to settle down to get any studying done but I am very drawn to these cards. I’ve decided to start collecting decks.There are some nice fairy decks out there and I like fairies. I guess if it has cool art work, I am interested. But drawn to the fey as well am I.

Well, It’s time to get ready for work. Should be busy today. I’d rather have that then being slow with nothing to do. I hate that.