Magickal Circle

I wish I knew the answer to this question. I can’t seem to shake the depression I am in. The doctor increased my meds and I don’t feel very motivated. But it hasn’t been very long, I suppose. But it seems like an eternity when you’re depressed. I woke up today a physically felt like crap so I stayed home. I had to keep lying down I felt so dizzy. I don’t want to focus on these things either. But it is difficult when you’re preoccupied.

So why are you depressed? This is the question everyone always asks. I find the question always maddening. Why does there have to be a reason. I just am, okay? It might have something to do with hating my job, not having things be the best at home and just feeling unsatisfied with my life at this point in time. So do something about it you say? Well I am trying to find a different job- both recent interviews I had turned out to be fruitless- but probably for the best. Home life- well- I’m just not going there. Besides, the happiness thing is supposed to come from within anyway. I guess I’m just not that happy these days, bottom line.

What would make me happy? hmmm. Good question and there is the point to ponder I suppose. I need to feel good about me again and right know that’s a bit elusive. I guess I have to ask the Goddess for her help and maybe she can help me to help myself. Keep the faith and believe things will get better. yea, that’s the ticket. Goddess bless. Sorry for the depressing post but venting helps me………