Magickal Circle

This is total unrelated to Wicca, or my it is. I had an incident I guess you’d call it, with some co-workers at work. As the senior member of the group and the person who trained most of these people, something had come up so I sent out a memo about the correct way to do something. A couple of the people jumped all over me. “who told you this”, “I though I supposed to do it this way. I want to know who told you this”. I explained to them I was only providing information. I get a e mail from one of these co-workers saying I should have gone through the team lead for this. All I was doing was trying to remind them. I guess I probable got more upset than the situation warranted but I am getting real tired of personal attacks at this place where I work. This one co-worker who sent me the e mail considers herself a good Christian., she is studying a lot at church. She has talked to me about the importance of love . I find no love in her actions an feel she is a bit of a hypocrite. I had another incident with one of of these co-workers where she announce in the team meeting that my New Years resolution was the my goal was to keep my mouth shut during team meetings. I do tend to be outspoken but it is because i have ideas and see things that need to be fixed. I learn how things work and try to make them work better. I can’t help it.

I can’t understand that kind of meanness. They don’t even realize they are doing it, that’s the sad part. I certainly am not feeling the love.

We had a team meeting this morning and I am going in late to work and didn’t go to the meeting so I didn’t have to look at their faces. I can retreat to my cube and work. I’ll be better about tomorrow but I am just so mad about the whole thing.

But maybe too, I should have the love and let go of this. they too are human. Their actions may not have been purposeful and they are doing what they thought was right at the time. I usually don’t stay mad for long but I guess I feel very hurt about the whole thing. I feel betrayed somehow and there’s me and them not the whole team anymore. I feel so strongly about the whole thing that I was ready to quit. I am uncomfortable being there now.
Well. I guess I am done. we shall see what happens. Goddess Bless